Body and Beauty, Health, Unveiling Invisible Illnesses

Unveiling Invisible Illnesses – War Paint

I always try to smooth my hair and conceal my tired eyes. I always dust on a peachy pink blush and a fun lip color, regardless of how I feel. This is the mask of an invisible illness warrior. Occasionally, there are days that I struggle to even lift a limb to put on my war paint. On those days when I bare a naked face and join society, I get told over and over and over again, “You look tired.”

When someone looks exhausted or drained, instead try asking if they need anything or offer help, a compliment or anything positive. I wear makeup to hide when my face goes pale while my blood pressure drops and my body starts going numb, ringing in my ears or the sound of my pulse takes over while my vision starts to sparkle or fade. I wear lipstick to hide the loss of color while I brace myself against the wall or casually sit down and continue to smile and listen to your day.

Every day is a struggle, whether it is big or small. On the really bad days, it is a lonely world and it feels like no one understand. When you try to reach out, no one listens because they think you are young and healthy and perfectly fine. It feels dismissive and disheartening, quiet and empty as you hope for tomorrow to be a better day.

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Thirty AF! Thirty Is The New Black – Photo Shoot πŸ–€πŸ₯‚

I remember the scare of my thirties haunting me by the age of 25. When 30 finally approached, I already accepted it the years before while whining about being old. I am now 33 and I would not change it if I could. The 20 something me was lost, confused, not good enough, insecure, a doormat, dramatic, stressed and flailing about in life. The 30s were so different. I grew a backbone, developed self worth and confidence, put my damn foot down, figured out what I wanted and what I DON’T want, got my shit together and found balance. 30s are awesome!

Check out my business partner, Theresa Lanno at Bombshells Glam Lounge! I photographed her on her 30th birthday. She is thirty AF and thriving!

*Photos by Misti Blu Day